evening tea

hello, again we are here welcoming a new month. 

i'm feeling quite meh today. probably because i lacked sugar in my veins, hence the title, evening tea, indicating that i have just made myself a cup of hot sweet tea in an attempt to improve my mood. kennedy went back to hometown this morning and i am suprised that he could actually make it at the airport lmao. 

anyways, im feeling kinda blue. kinda wanna go and catch a movie, kinda wanna do stuff with my friends, kinda just dont want to do anything. my dinner just got delivered. and this one doesn't make any attempt in conversing with me. hands typing and typing. me initiating conversation while the other party ends it. fingers still running on keyboard, not sure what to type for this entry. just sipped the tea and it tasted really good. i'm thinking whether i should finish typing this or straightly just proceed to dinner while i finish this later. maybe latter. 

i feel quite lonely right now but i don't feel like talking to anybody either. idk. moving on, lany's releasing new song this friday called 13 and let's see how it sounds like later. obviously. maybe i should start reading my books. 

list of the books that i have not read/finished yet:

1. kafka on the shore by haruki murakami

2. landline by rainbow rowell

3. counting by 7s by holly goldberg sloan

4. to kill a mockingbird by harper lee (honestly i've read a bit for this one and it confused me because i really am not familiar with its english. and also the use of vocabs is beyond me.)

5. sunset in central park by sarah morgan (kinda regret from purchasing this.)

6. to all the boys i've loved before by jenny han

7. our chemical hearts by krystal sutherland

8. attachment by rainbow rowell

9. 1q84 by haruki murakami (i've read until book 2 and im at book 3 now i think.)

10. norwegian wood by haruki murakami (i have a little bit more left but i can't seem to pick up my motivation to finish it.) 

wow, didn't think that there would be that many. but there's one thing. i actually want to erase everything about carry on by rainbow rowell from my brain so i can actually read it and re-feel the fluff of snowbaz. fuck. this entry kinda become books related post but all is well. i want to have my dinner now. happy 1st of june.

daily tune; paul kim - wanna love you
it's been a while.