we had actually just gone thru a week and two days into 2019 and im feeling more tired than ever. im tired of my feelings and my indecisive self. apparently cutting people out of ur life isnt as easy as u think. my thyroid level shoots up, even the lab couldnt measure how much the exact number is because it is so high. stress actually contributes in making hyperthyroidism happens and i cant put that stress away from me. its consuming me. everyday i think of dying. i know it wont solve any problems, it would only make the people around me sad, like super sad. but at least i can free myself then.
if i ever die, remember that i love u all. thanks for existing, thanks for being my friends, thsnks for being my family. shout out to oliv, gio, audrey; my support system. my campus gang; var, nis, chelle n also those who want to stay lowkey haha thank you for making my campus life better.
