i suck at making title so just pretend that u have read something nice

back in the hometown! <3 yay! 

so yesterday i had a late birthday dinner which is not-so-festive for the 17th birthday and i actually had fun hehe. the venue was at mall puri indah and the restaurant is called as blacklisted. i liked this restaurant as the menu really varies lol some of us really couldn't decide in what to eat but oh well~ 

i ordered fettucine carbonara and i think the pasta is really good!!! like super good lol it's on par with beatrice quarters' carbonara... super in love... i love pasta i love carbonara i love food that tastes good... so glad to be alive wow! what is a shame is that i didn't get to invite evita because i've forgotten about her hashtag true friend maaaaan feel super bad right now and then also aldo who mentioned abt the early dinner to some of my friends whom i already invited oh my god i feel super guilty again because i didn't invite him while he treated a meal on his birthday before fucc mi lyf. i am so sorry man!!!!

after eating, we divided ourselves in two groups and went on separate ways. my group went to gramedia and the others went to xxi so they could play games lol. well it was fun overall. the girls did really catch up and we gossiped a lot basically haha. one thing though, i love receiving cards/letters so shout out to tiffany!! ily xoxo (don't be sad) and also jeha hehe much thaaaaanks. 

then after some time we assembled ourselves again to rest before a person suggested to visit lippo mall puri which is kinda close to the place that we were at. but some of the guys chose to stay over in mall puri to fill their stomaches in pancious lmao guys.

walked and walked in lippo, me and olivia got matching hats with pingpong bat and its ball attached to it; simple and minimalistic yow!! visited books and beyond and i got to kill a mockingbird by harper lee and cynthia got all the bright places by jennifer niven (YAAAAAY I LOVED THE BOOK) and then we walked and walked again lmao. waited for grab for like half an hour before we cancelled it aissssssssss. much time wasted. 

got home around 10:30ish pm and i used like an hour to finish packing haha kms. all's good anyway. it was fun. i visited the regular cafe with my brothers today and i had coffee which is the huge reason why i am not yet sleeping due to the caffeine that is still streaming in my blood even though my eyes are as heavy as rocks. came back home and had dinner before we celebrated my birthday with my family today (it was a tad late lmao) with a freaking cake lmao it was badly designed but still thank you @ baker for the effort. 

today's highlights:

• i rode motorcycle in a straight street with my brother on the back for like 5 secs before we needed to make a turn which had a steep and it was actually too much for me.
• actually visited the cafe with my brothers which we never really did it before.
• celebrated my birthday at 9:30 pm (which is considered late in the house as my brothers have school tomorrow).
• i slept throughout the journey here (in the plane, in the car, in the ferry).

today was fun but it was pretty tired though haha AND I CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH STRONG WOMAN DBS LATER IN THE MORNING YAAAAAS PRAY FOR ME BECAUSE ALL OF THE FEELS!!!

daily tune; lany - good girls

^ my new jam. 

rainy song

greeting from jakarta <3

i am feeling quite good tonight as i put my playlist on action and it is again a rainy night. i did a drawing today and i liked the sketch before it is forever ruined by my sudden impulse to watercolor it. but all is well~ 

talking about the artsy stuff; i've decorated my planner today and i thought maybe i should just start a journal but then my planner would be mostly blank so maybe next year when i still have the motivation to do so lmao.  

anyway, it is already 21 of march which is the third week of the month and oh man time really flies gahhhhh and again, as usual i am having lots of thoughts in my mind. like right now, all of the things that i'd like to write is scattered all over the place lol i dont even know how to place it so they can have nice transition. but you do you, no? have a great day x

daily tune;  tomoya naka - rainy song 

if you are feeling blue.

bittersweet

happy birthday self! wasn't really looking forward in turning 17 because i knew this kind of stuff would happen. i was actually quite happy and grateful for my friends who bought me cupcakes and even oversized shoes because i really didn't see it coming hehe and then the midnight wishes from the circle. but i guess i am not feeling it, being 17. maybe i saw it coming. oh god i am so sad like super sad. even though you are not supposed to be sad for three days straight or a week (i forgot) on your birthday but i feel extra crappy! even google wished my happy birthday and i mentally corrected it as sad birthday plus the rain is making me sad even more...  oh god i think i'll be sad for the rest of my life which i hope i won't. doesn't wanna drown in my own tears. 

happy birthday sharon. i hope you will lead an incredible life which is worth telling and i hope you won't be sad all the time and then i also hope that you can vocalize your thoughts more. stand up for yourself. know your worth. you know this life is full of ups and downs. be patient and happiness will come to you because all the good things always come later. you are loved, remember that. 17. 

dying please help

EXHALING SUPER LONG SIGH oh my god im having maths test tmrw and i am actually running away from my problem n responsibility which is to continue my maths but my stupid n full brain doesnt want to compromise with me u kno !!!! my brain isnt working anymore im becoming even more stupid n what is this sequence stuff which is geometric n arithmetic lol.... im dying.... help.... how 2 differentiate... how 2 integrate.... how 2 function........ how 2 find gradient what is maths who am i where am i what am i doing !!!! i had coffee again today i think my eyes are going to give away soon lmao like yesterday my eyes were already v heavy which then i decided to drink coffee to keep me awake n then today my eyes were back at being heavy again which means sleep deprived eyes plus even more sleep deprived eyes.... sobs..... pity me pls n again im going to study maths now n this is not a news anymore but hey anyone who read this or even nobody idrc but pls pray 4 me i am continuously asking for support n prayers so i can survive this hell ! thnx !

coffee works wonders

omg i'm supposed to be studying for physics exams tmrw but i am here writing and typing idek what shit but because im having this adrenaline rush i need to take it out lmao i think it is because of the coffee that my heart is now beating very fast damn it aghhh i had chemistry papers today and i totally ruined my paper 2 because i had a lot of unanswered question ahhh so much regrets now but f--- it ah man teach me how to deal with physics tmrw!!!

im actually typing shit because nothing that i write is making sense oh well since when did i ever make sense lol and anyway coffee really works wonders as my eyes were super heavy earlier when i decided to study and i couldnt even keep my eyes open because i was that sleep deprived !!! coffee u saved my life i owe u !! nobody will read this but pls this nobody can u pray for me so that i can do well for tmrw's papers saranghAE

so! grateful!

so today is the day where i have received jeha's mail and it's a book and it's an advanced birthday gift for me and i just can't contain how grateful i am to have the people around me????

last night, i ended my day by praying as usual and i just got overwhelmed, really lol like no joke with all the people that i have in my life. some people might treat you like shit but i believe they are there in your life to teach you something, to let you grow stronger and develop yourself. and then there are some people that made you think and feel like you want to be more deserving of them because they are just so precious and that thought just literally made me tear up because personally i think i drown myself in self-pity too much and i suck at being a more deserving person but nevertheless, i think i'll remember those who treat me good because that's how they are and those who came and taught me a lesson and also helped me in clarifying of how i wanted to be treated. i really don't want to forget this feeling.  

beautiful beautiful day

good evening people !

so today i have been doing nothing but procrastinate :) nah, i actually studied a bit for physics but i think i have spent my day wrong? but still, good vibes!! i suck at making title for the post so just let it be hahahahahha hahahah hahahhaha (dry laugh) 

hmm, i decorated my planner a bit with john mayer's new album photo stuck on one of the pages for this month's section woooo artistic sharon! (terrible joke) and yesterday i've started to watch a japanese drama called nigeru wa haji da ga yaku ni tatsu. it was v funny lol recommending u guys if u ever need to watch something refreshing wewewewew. 

the sun is actually setting already and i have absolutely done nothing! hah! anyway i feel like updating something on my blog so yeah what a crap i am writing. i need to find a topic to talk for english this tuesday and i have no slightest idea of what i should talk about oh my god it's for 3 minutes long dasdasdasda pray 4 me !!!! sharon's out !!!!